Friday, January 20, 2012

Thoughts on "Someday"

Yesterday I posted a poem that I wrote over three years ago--October of '08--Someday.

During October of 2008, I was:

     *finishing my credential classes and preparing to student teach
     *working in the student union at CSULB (and not loving it)
     *living in an apartment in LB with Jess and Christina
     *involved in the Bethany college group
     *enjoying some Dodger games with friends
     *seeing WICKED (twice in one month)
     *enjoying Disneyland regularly
     *finishing up one chapter of my life
     *preparing for a chapter unknown...

In October of 2008, I didn't know if I would stay in Long Beach after graduation or move back to Bakersfield. I didn't know if I would find a teaching job anywhere or even be able to sub. I had no idea what my future held.

But I did know one thing: I desired to get married and have a family someday.

When the world around me was so unsure, my heart spoke the words of Someday into my hands.

I can honestly say that in October of 2008, if asked where I thought I'd be in January of 2012, I would have never answered teaching at Warren Junior High and living at home with my mom. 

Yet, here I am, and I am content. Of course my heart still desires to get married and start a family. Growing up, I never thought I'd be 26 and single, but I am, and I'm fine. I know whole heartedly that my God is sovereign. His ways are definitely not my ways, and His thoughts are not my thoughts. He knows me far better than I know myself. He holds my future and my present in His hands.

He is giving me so many amazing experiences that I'm sure I would not have had if I would have married young and started a family right away--traveling to Europe, riding in a helicopter into the Grand Canyon, flying a helicopter, going in a hot air balloon, and traveling to the East Coast to name a few.

I praise God for His perfect plan. I praise God for the future He has for me. I praise God for helping me to enjoy this time of my life as I wait for what may come.

I praise my God for my someday....

1 comment:

erin m. said...

AMEN Amy. My life is not how I imagined it either, but for the first time in my life, I am honest when I say that I'm content with where God has me particularly when it comes to singleness. I desire marriage deeply, but the Lord has brought me to a place where I know that marriage is not the key to a "successful" life, nor is it a promise. Praise God for His plans and love for us!